Pity Party for One....

... or three if you count not only me, but the frozen pizza and chocolate too. Yesterday I was just in one of those moods, where I felt the need to throw myself a little pity party. Did it help me? Not at all. I still felt the same way afterwards and I consumed way too many calories.

The month of May has been full of ups and downs... and a lot of uncertainty. I am totally a planner ... I like to know what I'm doing ahead of time and I'm not a fan of unexpected changes. Enter baseball. You never know what tomorrow will bring, you know nothing is ever guaranteed, and you are aware that everything can change in a second. This goes completely against my need for a plan! In the beginning years of baseball, this was all new to me, exciting, and I anticipated the unexpected. Now, with a baby, my perspective has changed just a bit. Yet, with everything we've been through season after season, baseball has impacted our life for the better.

During baseball season, being apart from each other is the hardest part. Road trips sometimes seem like eternity, especially with a baby added into the mix. Although it's difficult sometimes, I think this helps the hubs and I appreciate each other more. I appreciate Jim for having a job that allows me to stay home with Abby. I appreciate his hard work, dedication, and love for the game. In return, I hope that Jim appreciates me for the mother I've become. Even though it's stressful and tiring at times ::checks the bags under eyes, yup, still there:: I always give Abby my best effort. I try to remind myself that the road trips aren't just hard for the Mama left behind, but also for the Daddy who misses his girls.

This being our first baseball season with child, I decided to take part in the bible study with the other baseball wives. I'm not sure why I haven't in the past, but this year, I felt like I needed it. We come together every two weeks to discuss the book we are reading, "Calm My Anxious Heart" by Linda Dillow. Not only am I reading the book at the most perfect timing imaginable, but it's great to listen to these women, that are all in the same situation as me. We are going to learn about contentment together, focus on the positives around us, and push those negative thoughts out of our heads. Right?! Well we are going to practice this.... and try our best! :) I'm so lucky to be part of this baseball family... these baseball wives have become friends, friends that are strong in their faith and are willing to help when an unexpected situation arises.

Even though I sometimes feel and look like this frazzled Mom, I am so blessed to have this life. I have a loving husband, a baby girl I completely adore, and the uncertain life of baseball is an added bonus. I wouldn't change it for the world! :)

Please keep Jim in your thoughts as his elbow heals. We are praying for a speedy recovery, without surgery!